Fighting for our future

The first word i would like to say is, Congratulation to John the fuckface. He finally quit his job, who is a monk and managed to hook up with a chick, although not really a hot chick thou. The girl is, erm, short, smile all the time, dunno why, bla bla bla. Anyway, ask him for more information. I know this sounds unbelievable but its truth, John is dating right now. I would like to take this chance to grat Tan Kay Hui and Chin Yim Hong because they get a place in Matriculation, Labuan.

Remember my last post? I told all of you about a guy name Alvin and his Gf went to Labuan too? Guess what, she is back from Matriculation and give up on that place. She would like to continue her A level in IS. The first word i heard from her is " Matrix sucks!" I was like, LOL She told me that they need to wake up early in the morning to dance aerobic with all the malay girl, no offence to malay race by the way. They need to wear baju kurung to school every single day! Nowadays, both of them are living, studying happily once again in IS.

When i was driving just now, within 10 minutes, i saw 2 sport car which costs around 1.5million --2.5 million, which is Porsches and Lamborghini. The Porsches was b eside me while the Lamborghini was in the opposite lane. When i saw those car, i feel so envy and wanna buy one of them in the future. Try to imagine, it is so nice to fetch my dear out with those car right? I suddenly realise that i shouldn't feel envy because i was fetching 2 millionier or maybe billionier's son. For them, they didnt feel impressive at all because their parents might able buy it for them.

I had no clue whats going on in KL right now, which is Lo Yuan's house. I heard there is a quarrel between them. I knew that would happened but i didnt expect it would be so fast. They only live together for 1 or 2 week but sparks came out. I agreed she should move out to avoid more and further argue. Right now, i think she had get used of her life but i still miss her a lot. Anyway, cheers for all outstation students. Take care, which all of us are able to fight for our bright future.

Cheers up? Guess not.

Few days after she had left, i though everything will be settled. Having a normal life style, go to school, bullshit with friends and so on. Guess what, one of my friends name Alvin Wong and his mate, Tze Lei are leaving too. She got the offer letter from Matriculation and they both were facing the same situation as i do. God damn it, here comes my feeling once again. Nobody understand their feelings more then i do. Sending your own girlfriends is the hardest thing to do in the earth. After such incident, i often paralyzed myself with alchohol and pool and it works really well.

My friends often asked that where is the Alvin Lim which is enthusiastic all the time? I had no fucking clue on that. Today, 14th of may, is her birthday. We usually celebrate together although we are not suppose to do that during secondary school. However, this year, both of us were celebrating it alone. She told me that she was going to book the flight to KK initially but she changed her mind lastly. This is because she finally found her direction which is going to study at god damn sohai Tarc in KL. Is this a challenge? Once again, endless challenge? Both of us ran though all those blockage again and again and there is more and more in the future.

I had a small conflict with her yesterday. Its about her accomodation in KL. She claimed that the place that she is living right now is not suitable for her but i hope she can still live with her friends, which is also my buddy which can lend me a hand. I dont think she can handle well or be independent. She's always a weaklings in my mind.. Anyway, all the best to my buddy that is going to leave today. Hope to see you guys soon. Take care and cheers.

The day had finally, eventually arrived.

I had a great feeling towards her from my first sight, i was only a 13- year-old kiddo and that moment and i dont think i understand what the hell "love" is. I started to fall in love with her when both of us were working in a class's food stall. It take a long long time for me to tackle her, 3 years but finally i did it. Her appearance never ran away from my sight but not today. She finally left me, she went to kl. She left me, finally...


I remember everything about that day, every single minutes, every single action, every single step and every single place we go. I pick her up at the Inanam Terminal Bus Stop and she claimed that she was having a great pain of stomachache. I quickly drive her home for medicine and rest. I turned my sterring with 80km/hour and she didnt bucked up her seat up. Therefore, there was a bruise on her knee.


After taking a half an hour break, she was recover and we started our last date. I brought her to Damai for bread for no reason and i brought her to have a look at my school. After that, i drove to Tg. Aru and have a walk at Sunset Bar which is located inside Tg. Aru Hotel. Unfortunately, we cant observerd any nice sunset scenery because it was a cloudy day.


We had our dinner at Old Town Station in City Mall and i think both of us enjoy it. Lastly, i invited her to have a drink with my friends, to introduce them to my buddy as well. I slept over at her brother house that night. It was a tough night for me, I feel like, i do not want her to leave me tomorrow, i cant fall in sleep, i cry, over and over, alone in the living room until morning. When her brother came out, i pretend that i left something in my car and went out. When i sent both of them to the airport, once again, tears rolling down on my cheek. She request for a warm hug but i denied, for some reason.


I cant sleep well this few days since she left. She make me feel like I'm a useless crybaby. God damn it. I really cant let my hair down since she's in Kl. I bet she cant take care on her own, i bet she will cry easily there.. and more.. more...............................................