Friday, September 3, 2010

I miss you

I got a news from friend that you are going back to Sandakan that day. I couldn't describe my feeling about that. He told me that thats my opportunity to ask you back but i wouldn't dare to do that. The first thing i did when i received the news was i called you, get the confirmation and offer myself to pick you up. You denied because due to your family issues again. Maybe i'm missing you too much, i still invite one of my buddies to go check out in the airport. Your flight arrived at 9.00pm but i was waiting there since 8.30pm because i would not want your parents to notice my appearance. From far, i saw you walking out the terminal, with an white shirt. I really wish to go and say Hi but i dont wan something stupid happened later.

Luckily, you would still going to hang out with me when you are in Sandakan. We went to have a drink and we meet some friends and people who allow us to stay in their apartment when i was in KL. They knew the whole story about us and i personally think that they would though we are getting back together. Anyway, thats not important. We have a really long long chat, you talked a lot, a lot but none of the topic are about us or our relationship. You look very happy when we are chatting. Frankly, i really wish to talk about our problems, getting another chance from you but i really dont wanna see you cry anymore. You are very happy now, except studies, you don hav anymore stress. You have a bunch of good friends which can share a lot with you. Since you are so happy nowadays, i really don wish to spoilt ur happiness.

During the 3rd day, we went out with some of our friends. Personally i think thats a awkward situation cause i really dunno how to act in front of them. We were still couples months ago but right now? Who am i? Hmm... I really dont understand. Every night i sent you home, i cried outside your house. I really wish you can stay longer. I remember the time that kissing your forehead everytime i send you home. I cried, seriously, i cried but i dont know what to do..

After those days, you couldn't go out anymore because your family again. We still managed to go back to our secondary school go get a non-academic transcipt from our teacher. I can see that you do not know how to answer when teacher ask us whether we are still together or not. I felt really sad but i pretend i didnt get it. We chat a while on MSN but you seems emo because you couldn't get ur information. Things get worse when you change ur status update on ur facebook. At that moment, i knew that its definitely from your mum again, she's giving you pressure. After that night, i went to buy some chocolate for you because i knew that you would like it. You smile happily when i handed it to you but, our status are different.

I cant even send you off when you are going to board back to KL. Like the day you arrived, what can i do is check you out from far. I only can see a good family reunion and only dare to call you when they left and you walk into the terminal. I called you, wished you but you wouldn't know what to say and told me that you wouldn't like to chat anymore. I really miss you a lot but i know i couldn't do anything. I think the problems is not LOVE - LOVE anymore. Its family...